I surrender

 Lord I surrender myself.
I can not live this life thinking the way I do.
My hair is falling out taking in my own stress and of those who surround me.
Shedding tears for people who wont.
Caring for people who dont.
Too lazy to pray every night only when things go right.
I surrender.
On my knees I'm crying asking for the strength, wisdom, faith.
Take me where you must.
Nothing will exist outside of you.
give me the voice and tools to preach outside my capabilites.
give me courage to stand against the enemies who seek to hurt me.
I know who i am and what ive done.
i am no Hippocrate.
i am a sinner with remorse.
I am the girl who cries in church.
Thankful for the fogiveness you have for me.
YOU accept me when others reject me.
You judge me too justly when i plead guilty.
TE AMO DIOS
con todo mi alma y corazon.
tu me daz la felicidad que no merezco.
SHOW ME THE WAY TO LIVE.
Kill the nightmares that follow me.
Guide me to the righteousness.
Teach me to Forgive myself.
"JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU"

just like Mary Magdalen,
I am the prostitute.
And only you love me.
You are my only salvation.
GRACIAS DIOS.

y te ruego siempre senor por ellos que no saben
de lo mal que hacen. por lsus pecados que. que no tienen muerte.
por el perdon de la ignorancia. por la tentacion.
por estar ciegos del verdadero amor tuyo.
y por esta guerra contra los demonios.
salir victorosios contigo y salvar las tantas almas mas que se pueda.
te pido por mis enemigos amigos familia y desconocidos.
por todas la religiones. por los que no creen y los que te tienen reincorr.
por el odio volverce amor.
y por mi.
la prostituta.
la pecadora.
salvame.
y departa estos demonios que me attackan
diendo me miedo.
dame de ti.
te lo pido senor
y virgen maria que rueges por nosotros.
y san jose foster father de jesus ruege por nosotros.
santo angel de la guardia ruege y cuide nos.
jesus. te ruego por nosotros.
senor dios tu padre mi padre.
que nos salve.

SEX

I know boys are very much mistaken to believe that girls love sex as much as them && even though this may be true in some ways id like to disagree.

I believe boys love sex way more than girls.

Why?

I come to believe that a girl [not a woman] loves the feelings associated with sex or accompanied by sex. Which includes the feeling of comfort. the kisses the feeling of being needed or liked. Being fed a bunch of lies that at the moment just like sex seems like the best thing. the best feeling of comfort or security even acceptance from the other sex if low self esteem is an issue. But the next day when they stop texting or they only hit you up at night. the feeling of being used and taken for granted blooms.

but yet continue to have sex with that person because it is the only connection or thing in common they have "the like of sex"

For example. the girl that every guy will sex but will never claim as a girlfriend is the HOE. "Good enough to fuck but not wifey material" but that girl isnt fucking everyone because she wants to be a hoe. Shes looking for acceptance and as she goes on she realizes whats shes done what shes lost. respect from then and for herself yet she continues because "she dosent give a fuck what a hater gotta say"

but someone tell that "HOE" you love her..She will never be that "HOE" again.

Ive witnessed it happen more than once. and i hate the phrase "YOU CANT TURN A HOE INTO A HOUSEWIFE"

but that "wifey" you got in your kitchen has a dirty secret slate you know nothing about.
how many guys shes DONE. is 5 times whatever she told you.
just because its not in the open and ppl didnt talk about her dosent mean it isnt true.

and yes she might of been a hoe. but the past and past decisions dont make a person.
It only makes a lesson learned.
Just like everyone should learn to accept their own faults, and others.
Stop pointing fingers. Stop judging one another.
Because an eye for an eye makes the world blind. <3
now aint that a shame.

REAL EYES REALIZE REAL LIES
REAL RECOGNIZE REAL

you have no idea.

look in the mirror have a clean slate admit all your mistakes.
learn to forgive. learn to love.
learn from others.